RefLeCtiOns

April 15th- Tax day, also 3 years ago my grandma died. 6 weeks after my grandpa passed away from cancer. It was so sudden and such a shock, quite the opposite of my grandpa where is was something that we knew would happen. It is somewhat easy to say that it was supposed to happen that way... etc, but that doesn't still stop me from sometimes thinking that in someway I feel "cheated" from her passing. I never got to see her and Parker meet, I never got to tell her really goodbye. I found myself trying to remember what the last things I said to her was. She was an amazing grandma, I can still hear the sound of her voice, and sometimes when I get really excited about something, I still find myself wishing I could call and tell her. I found out from a friend that they lost their baby today, the baby was about 17 weeks along and the baby- Michael, only lived for about 10 minutes before passing and I feel so sad for them. I just cried, maybe it is the combination of reflecting on my grandma, and their loss but I am feeling so overwhelmed right now.